A New Day, A New Sentence: 2012

Sunday

December 30, 2012

I'm going to put together a Bucket List; one of the first items: Fly a plane.

Saturday

December 29, 2012

I always think of something profound during the day, but when I get here, I've already forgotten what it was.

Friday

December 28, 2012

I can't tell whether I'm unusually calm or generally too burned out to care.

Thursday

December 27, 2012

Should I be sad or glad that the only visitor to this journal is the Google Bot?

Wednesday

December 26, 2012

Worried that I won't make it to the Cape before I die.

Tuesday

December 24, 2012

We had to make a Christmas Eve stop at the pediatric after-hours care clinic for a cold/sore throat, but I hope the rest of our holiday is up from here!

Sunday

December 23, 2012

Hoping for a healthy, happy, heart-warming Christmas...

Saturday

December 22, 2012

Leave it to me to screw up a random act of kindness.

Wednesday

Tuesday

December 18, 2012

I suppose it's time for yet another sleep study; I can't keep my eyes open at any point during the day (or night).

Monday

December 17, 2012

When will I learn that I just need to go to bed earlier?

Saturday

December 15, 2012

In before the clock strikes 12:00, but with nothing noteworthy to say.

Friday

December 14, 2012

I can't even begin to describe how distraught I am over the school shootings today.

Thursday

December 13, 2012

I am blown away by the Paul McCartney/Nirvana performance at the 12.12.12 benefit concert; what a historic moment.

Wednesday

Tuesday

December 11, 2012

Well, my foot's not broken, so I ran today; I'm regretting that decision now.

Monday

December 10, 2012

Why must everyone I hate be more successful in life than I am?

Sunday

December 9, 2012

I was jealous of all the runners today, wishing I could run 13.1, and I have no one to blame but myself.

Friday

December 7, 2012

Is it always going to be this way for me?

Thursday

December 6, 2012

I cannot wait for next Friday; my life is going to change.

Wednesday

December 5, 2012

Why must money always get in the way of any decent opportunity?

Tuesday

December 4, 2012

A potentially life-changing surgery--sure, why not!

Monday

December 3, 2012

I have good days and not-so-good days; today was one of the latter, as I fought breakdowns several times.

Friday

November 28-30, 2012

#28: My new phone.

#29: My ability to help others.

#30: The fact that I have so much to be thankful for--more than I thought I did at the beginning of this month.

Tuesday

Monday

November 26, 2012

#26: Non-FM sources of music, such as XM Radio and Pandora.

Sunday

November 24-25, 2012

#24: Running outdoors.

#25: The few friends I have.

Friday

November 23, 2012

#23: These precious few days of alone time that I've been given.

Thursday

November 22, 2012

#22: Our wedding anniversary, our marriage, our tenacity, our friendship, our family, our love.

Wednesday

November 21, 2012

#21: My (somewhat) intellect and strong intuition.

November 19-21, 2012

#19: My health and my family and friends' health.
#20: My washer and dryer.
#21: Food.

Sunday

November 16-18, 2012

#16: Plumbing.
#17: Central air and heat.
#18: My higher education.

Thursday

November 15, 2012

#15: Modern-day transportation, even if I can't always afford it.

Wednesday

November 14, 2012

#14: The rest of my family, I guess, but especially those who are helpful and loving and caring.

Tuesday

Monday

November 12, 2012

#12: Technology: my phone, tablet, computers, TV, DVR, satellite, etc.

Sunday

Saturday

November 10, 2012

#10: My toddler sleeps through the night and sleeps until at least 8:00 a.m.

Friday

Thursday

November 8, 2012

#8: My job and my husband's job; we may get frustrated sometimes, but it could be (and has been) a LOT worse.

Wednesday

November 7, 2012

#7: Music and its ability to transport me to another time and place.

Tuesday

Monday

November 5, 2012

#5: My house, the roof over my head that protects me and my family, because I know there are so many people who are unfortunate enough not to have one.

Sunday

November 4, 2012

#4: The opportunity to play on a softball team with great people.

Saturday

November 2, 2012

#2: My loving, hard-working, funny, smart, handy, talented, caring, supportive husband, without whom I would not be able to reach any of my personal goals.

Thursday

November 1, 2012

30 Days of Thankful: #1 My darling, precious son, who has made me a better person.

Wednesday

October 31. 2012

Spookie Pookie, in his dragon costume, enjoyed his first trick-or-treating event; Swiss Avenue in Dallas on Halloween is awesome!

Tuesday

October 30, 2012

Took a softball to the face, hence my absence from here; and yes, I am in pain.

October 23, 2012

If I were on Dancing With the Stars, I'd want to do the quickstep to "Kryptonite" by 3 Doors Down.

Monday

October 22, 2012

Feeling overwhelmed this week, could really use some help.

Sunday

October 21, 2012

So much for that rest I was hoping for this weekend.

Saturday

October 20, 2012

Spaceships, cupcakes, sunburns, dan dan noodles, friends...good day.

September 16, 2012

Softball got rained out today; I got laundry done ahead of schedule.

Saturday

September 15, 2012

How is it possible to be this exhausted all the time, especially when I've been taking better care of myself than I ever have before?

Friday

September 14, 2012

Finally got to run outside today, most definitely harder than running on the treadmill.

Thursday

Wednesday

September 12, 2012

Practice at the batting cages tonight with E & T!

Tuesday

September 11, 2012

I'll never forget, but sometimes I wish I could.

Monday

September 10, 2012

Being sore from yesterday's game + running for 25 minutes on the treadmill today = exhausted beyond belief

Sunday

September 9, 2012

I had a good, busy weekend with running and the zoo and softball, but now I am plain exhausted.

Saturday

Friday

September 7, 2012

Just when I thought things were getting better, they start crumbling around me once again.

Thursday

September 6, 2012

I can't believe I ran for 25 whole minutes today, nonstop, for the first time ever.

Wednesday

September 5, 2012

I feel ganged up on for wanting to be happy.

Tuesday

Monday

September 3, 2012

What a freeing feeling it is to get carried away in a book, even when it's nonfiction.

Sunday

September 2, 2012

There are few places on Earth more miserable than Texas on Labor Day weekend.

Friday

August 31, 2012

Dreaming about South Africa a lot today and this evening, wondering if I'll ever, ever get to see it in person.

Saturday

August 11, 2012

I wish I didn't have to be conscious for these next few days.

Friday

August 10, 2012

Why do the things that inspire me have to hurt me so much?

Wednesday

August 8, 2012

It's no wonder I'm heartless: I've given away every piece of my heart.

Tuesday

August 7, 2012

Really, really, really wishing I could leave town this weekend.

Monday

August 6, 2012

My shirt matched my eyes today (I almost typed 'shirt' without the 'r').

Sunday

August 5, 2012

The Olympics make me wonder, what if I had...

Saturday

August 4, 2012

For the first time in my life, I'm actually having to exercise aggressively and watch what I eat.

Thursday

Wednesday

Tuesday

July 31, 2012

I don't think I was ready to re-enter the real world yet.

Monday

Sunday

July 29, 2012

Well, hello, Ryan Lochte; I'm glad I decided to care about the Olympics this time around.

July 28, 2012

Forgiveness is the best, most powerful gift one can give--and receive.

Friday

July 27, 2012

A photograph of a couple of lovers--or friends--can be a particularly powerful totem to the people who are in the picture.

Thursday

July 26, 2012

My heart has beat enough for two people today.

July 25, 2012

I registered for my first pre-med class today, General Chemistry I.

Monday

July 23, 2012

Chick-fil-A chocolate chunk cookies--they can't really be beat.

Sunday

July 22, 2012

"In my head there is a shrine to you..."

Friday

July 20, 2012

This theater massacre has pushed me over the edge; I can no longer defend the Second Amendment.

Thursday

Wednesday

July 18, 2012

Another day, another (non-injury) car accident.

July 17, 2012

Today was one of those days during which I doubted myself--like almost every other day.

Monday

July 16, 2012

I'm beginning to lose the wind in my sails.

Sunday

Saturday

July 14, 2012

I really do need to appreciate what I already have.

Friday

Thursday

July 12, 2012

I can't stop eating Chick-fil-A's chocolate chunk cookies; I've got a 3-a-day habit--it costs almost the same as a 1-pack-a-day cigarette habit.

Wednesday

July 11, 2012

Conjunctivitis: I can't see why this bothers me so.

Tuesday

Monday

July 9, 2012

Surely this chest pain and arm tingling is all mental, right?

Sunday

July 8, 2012

I'm a writer; that's what I do, so why can't I just do this?

Saturday

July 6, 2012

Saw an old friend today; it was like we never spent years apart.

Thursday

Wednesday

July 4, 2012

It is quite possible that I am recovering.

Tuesday

Wednesday

June 27, 2012

I am just starting to creep out into the real world after nearly two weeks of reticence and reflection.

Friday

June 15, 2012

Hoping to come back on the other side of this as a stronger, more functional and focused person.

Thursday

June 14, 2012

"They're coming to take me away, ha-haaaa!"

Wednesday

June 13, 2012

I hope I can hold out until my doctor's appointment tomorrow; I can't describe the pain I'm in.

Tuesday

June 12, 2012

So this is what I have to do, chemically numb myself every night in order to feel somewhat okay?

Monday

Sunday

June 10, 2012

As a new week starts, the scabs are scraped off and the searing pain returns.

June 9, 2012

Got reacquainted with an old friend tonight, and it felt SO good.

Friday

June 8, 2012

In times like these, I really, really wish I believed in a higher power.

Thursday

June 7, 2012

Some part of me--deep, deep down--must still care: I changed my mind about the top I want to wear to work tomorrow.

Wednesday

Tuesday

June 5, 2012

Loyalty be the cold glass upon which my palm is firmly pressed; a faint warmth returns, from imagination or from unexpected guest?

Monday

June 4, 2012

They say the truth shall set you free; I put a piece of it in the mail today, so we will see.

Sunday

June 3, 2012

I am in a constant state of preoccupation about deep (deeply?) I'm in trouble.

Saturday

June 2, 2012

Want runs deep; need runs even deeper still.

Friday

Thursday

May 31, 2012

The things I'll never know are the things that slowly kill me.

Wednesday

May 30, 2012

...Aaaand back into my tortoise shell of withdrawal I go...

Tuesday

May 29, 2012

I'll pay for it in the morning, but I am alcohol-numb right now; the stab wound feels more like a bruise, just for now.

Monday

May 28, 2012

I'm slowly resigning myself to the fact that I will never be free of crushing burdens.

Sunday

May 27, 2012

"...I am barely breathing / And I can't find the air / I don't know who I'm kidding / Imagining you care..."

Saturday

Friday

May 25, 2012

One sentence cannot possibly convey how emotionally miserable I am tonight.

Thursday

May 24, 2012

Rock bottom is within my sight; this is gonna hurt.

Wednesday

May 23, 2012

What does it say about me and my life when I have to wait, on hold for over 40 minutes, in an online crisis chat room?

Tuesday

May 22, 2012

A thing that is good: that crisp very first gulp of a cold, fresh, newly opened bottle of soda.

Monday

May 21, 2012

I'm hoping I don't have bronchitis or pneumonia; I haven't been this sick in a long time.

Sunday

May 20, 2012

"And let's move to the beat / Like we know that it's over / If you slip going under / Slip over my shoulder."

Saturday

May 19, 2012

I may have cried a little bit today when I saw THE DeLorean from Back to the Future; a childhood dream was realized on this day.

Friday

May 18, 2012

What the fuck, Sprint, with having poor--or no--coverage around one of the busiest intersections in one of the biggest cities in the country?

Thursday

May 17, 2012

Seeing people dancing in their cars makes me happy.

Wednesday

Tuesday

May 15, 2012

Just when I thought I couldn't possibly hurt any more...

Monday

May 14, 2012

When will I ever stop asking myself, What's the point?

Sunday

Saturday

Why, yes, I have been thinking about the records I will buy tomorrow as part of my Mother's Day celebration: Aja, Katy Lied, Breakfast in America, Thriller, Off the Wall, Tattoo You, Music for the Masses, and so many more.

Friday

May 11, 2012

So I guess I don't have to buy myself a Mother's Day present after all.

Thursday

May 10, 2012

Understand: Many people are permanently broken on the inside; please be kind and realize the impact you may have on someone.

Wednesday

May 9, 2012

I am going to headbutt someone if I don't get my satellite radio put back in my car very soon.

Tuesday

May 8, 2012

Oh, the melancholy; it hurts.

Monday

May 7, 2012

I wish this cycle would just end already so I can mourn and move on, once again.

Saturday

May 5, 2012

I'm ready for autumn.

Friday

May 4, 2012

Lonely is the heart that wanders.

Thursday

May 3, 2012

The kid's getting ear tubes tomorrow, so I'm certain I won't sleep tonight.

Wednesday

May 2, 2012

I could use a positive change in my life right about now.

Tuesday

May 1, 2012

So it's not normal to feel this hopeless all the time?

Monday

April 30, 2012

From Vermont comes a piece of my past that I could possibly rework and spin into veritable gold.

Sunday

April 29, 2012

I want out of this circle, out of this city, out of this life.

Saturday

April 28, 2012

I guess there isn't a medication strong enough sometimes.

Friday

April 27, 2012

When will I be okay?

Thursday

April 26, 2012

I don't know whether I'll ever be able to tell my son how many times he has already saved me from grave danger.

Wednesday

April 25, 2012

Will I ever stop thinking of myself as the sum of all my failures?

Tuesday

April 24, 2012

I can find few things worse than a sick child, from an empathetic standpoint.

Monday

April 23, 2012

I'm numb, and almost comfortably so.

Sunday

April 22, 2012

"Did I tell you, you're wonderful?"

Saturday

April 21, 2012

How is this an acceptable way to live, working (often unhappily) and waiting for the two days on which we don't?

Friday

April 20, 2012

I wish I could think of something to put here other than song lyrics or some other person's bons mots.

Thursday

April 19, 2012

Sometimes there just are no words.

Wednesday

April 18, 2012

When will every CD1 not be the worst day of life anymore?

Tuesday

April 17, 2012

"I think it's strange you never knew."

Monday

April 16, 2012

I switched from my diaper bag back to my regular purse tonight and was saddened by what seems like the end of an era.

Sunday

April 15, 2012

$800 for the new roof, $2800 for the IRS...When do I get a real break?

Saturday

April 13, 2011

Saw my grandmother today; wish I could help her more financially.

Friday

April 13, 2012

Ready for a vacation, but not ready for what I'll come back to.

Thursday

April 12, 2012

My obsession with the RMS Titanic has been revived this week.

Wednesday

April 11, 2012

Another birthday...underwhelming, but at least our house got a new roof today.

Tuesday

April 10, 2011

I wonder how much of my life I've spent waiting on other people.

Monday

April 9, 2012

I propose that I get a free pass from meetings and all other things unpleasant, because this is my birthday week and all.

Saturday

April 7, 2012

The Easter Bunny has made his visit, and it's a good thing, because I'm exhausted and ready for bed!

Friday

April 6, 2012

Finally, a couple of days of rest, except for the parenting, errand running, and meeting with the roof people.

Thursday

April 5, 2012

I want this long-ass week to finally be over, yet I have another full day of work left.

Wednesday

April 4, 2012

Stepping into the 2010s with my new-to-me first-generation iPad.

Tuesday

April 3, 2012

Quite the scare today, what with the tornadoes and all; I was so glad to hug my son when I got home.

Monday

April 2, 2012

I really, really wish I didn't have to live in extreme fear of germs.

Sunday

April 1, 2012

April Fools' Day: an annual reminder of just how gullible I am.

Saturday

March 31, 2012

Oh, what a glorious day by myself!

Friday

March 30, 2012

Dear Mystery Man in my dream: Thank you for awakening feelings in me that have been dormant for years.

Thursday

March 29, 2012

"Can you take it all away?"

Wednesday

March 28, 2012

Just let it go...

Tuesday

March 27, 2012

It's too early in the week for me to be this mentally and physically run down.

Monday

March 26, 2012

"Now you're just somebody that I used to know."

Sunday

March 25, 2012

Yes, comments to my son such as "You need a little brother or sister to play with" still sting.

Saturday

March 24, 2012

Sometimes it crosses my mind: giving up on everything and becoming a nun.

Friday

March 23, 2012

I guess I don't like a whole lot of things.

Thursday

March 22, 2012

Here I go again, getting burned out on life in general.

Wednesday

March 21, 2012

Ever have those days where you feel invisible (not invincible)?

Tuesday

March 20, 2012

Okay, so I don't have a cavity or a cracked tooth; it's just a mystery pain--probably sinuses.

Monday

March 19, 2012

I waited all day long for a rainstorm that is just now arriving.

Sunday

March 18, 2012

Asked for a zip line adventure for my birthday--here's to hoping!

Saturday

March 17, 2012

Got my hair highlighted today, feeling more whole again.

Friday

March 16, 2012

I just realized I forgot to call my grandmother today to wish her a happy birthday.

Thursday

March 15, 2012

Looking forward to diving into volume one of The Walking Dead graphic novel.

Wednesday

March 14, 2012

How can I get more than 12 hours of sleep and still feel this worn out and burned out?

Tuesday

March 13, 2012

FM radio sucks so bad, I don't even know.

Monday

March 12, 2012

Seriously, I abhor Daylight Saving Time.

Sunday

March 11, 2012

When will we finally eradicate this archaic Daylight Saving nonsense?

Saturday

March 10, 2012

I cannot wait to have someone take care of me, for a change.

Friday

March 9, 2012

Life may be stressful, but having good friends helps me remember what's truly important.

Thursday

March 8, 2012

How is it that friends who are physically hundreds or thousands of miles away from you can make you feel as though they're sitting right next to you?

Wednesday

March 7, 2012

So my blood pressure is too...low.

Tuesday

March 6, 2012

I am not going insane, I am not going insane, I am not going insane...

Monday

March 5, 2012

I never thought I would, but I'm really getting into The Hunger Games now.

Sunday

March 4, 2012

Loved having to spend my award money on groceries today...loved it.

Saturday

March 2, 2012

Purple nails today, rawr.

Friday

March 2, 2012

I won a president's service excellence award at work today, feeling pretty, pretty, pretty good about it.

Thursday

March 1, 2012

I can just imagine the tears streaming down my cheeks on that day when I am finally on a plane that is landing in Cape Town.

Wednesday

February 29, 2012

Here I am, getting burned out again.

Tuesday

February 28, 2012

"The pain doesn't go away. You just make room for it."

Monday

February 27, 2012

"Their lips are lying / Only real is real."

Sunday

February 26, 2012

"We take the pressure and we throw away / Conventionality belongs to yesterday."

Saturday

February 25, 2012

Dreaming of Cape Town...

Friday

February 24, 2012

Holy shit, South Africa is beautiful; someone, please stop me from looking at it on Google Maps and further depressing myself.

Thursday

February 23, 2012

I should probably care, but I don't.

Wednesday

February 22, 2012

What if a certain someone from my distant past had (or still has) a thing for me and I'm just now learning about it?

Tuesday

February 21, 2012

I need more of something, but I don't know what.

Monday

February 20, 2012

It's hard for me to keep up with even a one-sentence blog while I'm on the road, evidently.

Friday

February 17, 2012

I feel that I am not cut from the cloth of a stay-at-home mother; I really do.

Thursday

February 16, 2012

So my throat is sort of sore and I am hoarse, but it was well worth to share drinks and laughs with a good friend tonight.

Wednesday

February 15, 2012

Nervous to meet a friend in person tomorrow, hoping I don't screw this up.

Tuesday

February 14, 2012

My little boy is the best Valentine I've ever had!

Monday

February 13, 2012

Chilly and rainy: That's how I like my Mondays served up.

Sunday

February 12, 2012

This was a very good weekend--much needed after such a terrible week.

February 11, 2012

Kindness stuns me.

Friday

February 10, 2012

Sometimes laughter really is the best medicine.

Thursday

February 9, 2012

My Godfather died today.

Wednesday

February 8, 2012

Ho-hum.

Tuesday

February 7, 2012

Please, please, please let this sore throat be allergies and not strep.

Monday

February 6, 2012

There's not an interesting thought to be found in my brain tonight, sorry.

Sunday

February 5, 2012

Why should I have to lower my standards if it's everything else--and not me--that sucks?

Saturday

February 4, 2012

Wishing I could take my son's illness away from him...

Friday

February 3, 2012

This week has consisted of visits to a veterinarian (to have a cat euthanized), a dentist (routine cleaning), a hospital (routine mammogram), and a pediatrician (to treat my son's eye infection).

Thursday

February 2, 2012

Colorado could be a lot closer than I originally thought it was.

Wednesday

February 1, 2012

I sometimes wonder how many times I've come close to death and not even known it.

Tuesday

January 31, 2012

A routine tooth cleaning at the dentist's office is like a chance to start over with fresh, whiter teeth, except I will quickly tarnish them once again by consuming copious amounts of soda.

Monday

January 30, 2012

Said goodbye to a pet today, still waiting for reality to settle in.

Sunday

January 29, 2012

Yes, yes, yes, very mellow tonight...

Saturday

January 28, 2012

After a spur-of-the moment date night filled with sushi, green tea, seaweed salad, and lots of laughs, I am relaxed and recharged.

Friday

January 27, 2012

The English language needs a word for "beyond tired."

Thursday

January 26, 2012

A stain from a twist-off beer bottle cap on one of my old shirts reminded me of my old life tonight.

Wednesday

January 25, 2012

Please don't let me overdose on Xanax and alcohol tonight.

Tuesday

January 24, 2012

Beer: It's good and stuff.

Monday

January 23, 2012

Day 1 (of 5) of my adventure in single-parenting: This should be part of military boot camp curriculum.

Sunday

January 22, 2012

The husband is on a plane to Denver at this very moment, and although this is a trip for business and not for pleasure, I am still immensely jealous.

Saturday

January 21, 2012

How is it that I can sleep for almost 10 hours and still have heavy eyelids all day?

Friday

January 20, 2012

Looking forward to Xanax dreams tonight.

Thursday

January 19, 2012

Colorado dreaming on such a (pseudo)winter's day.

Wednesday

January 18, 2012

I love seeing collaborative efforts such as today's Web blackouts in protest of SOPA/PIPA; even if the efforts don't effect much change, it still gives me the warm-n-fuzzies.